Notice the Feeling – Painful Emotions Can Hold You Back

It seemed like it would be a normal Friday, if there is such a thing as normal anything. I woke up and immediately went to my “mental workshop,” my sacred space that I have created and used over many years.  I spent a few minutes focusing on my breathing and paid attention to what I was feeling.  Then I used my thoughts to create a positive feeling in my body so I was in the best space for contributing something positive to the planet and for getting my work done.  I did my best to feel Love in my heart and imagine Light flowing into my heart and out to anyone or any situation it could support and uplift.  I created my intentions for the day and went on my way, never suspecting there was a great challenge minutes away.

When something happens, positive or negative, there is usually a detail you can recall that brings back the moment when you think of it later.

Mine will always be reaching to open my curtains that day.  I got a feeling and I knew I needed to prepare myself for something that could be emotional.  My first thought was that I needed to be at peace and in total control when reading my emails.  It was a feeling that could easily have been missed but I had just come from my morning quiet time ritual and was pretty tuned in.

I felt something and I love that we all have that gift and ability.  We have an inner GPS if we keep the noise and chaos down so the signal gets through.  To my way of thinking, it is a Higher Power, but I don’t think it matters what you call it or consider it to be.  A message got through and I listened to it.

I won’t go into my back story here but a couple of years ago I had just come out of a very low point in my life after suffering great loss.  And I would have preferred to stay in the background for a while longer at the least, but some pretty miraculous things had been happening.  They made it very clear that I was meant to go back to coaching and teaching the process I use.

I had made a decision to put that on the shelf for a while and just continue to use my process to get back on my own feet.  But I had also made a commitment to willingly flow with whatever direction things went.  My personal feeling was that I wanted to put a little more distance between the new improved me today and the memories of the times I went through not that long ago.  But “The Universe” had a different plan and had made that very clear.

My answer came through a flood of people who showed up in the most amazing ways, literally overnight.  And on the day that I had set as the day my decision would go into effect.

So I flowed with the guidance I felt I was getting and started my mental/internal work with the idea of developing something that “The Universe” can work through.  Part of my process is to reach a strong state of internal peace and then set an intention for the Light in me to reach the Light in anyone else who is meant for whatever coaching/training program is about to develop during the creation process.  I send out peaceful feelings and Light and Love with the intention that those seeking the solution I can provide will connect with me if it is for their highest good. (You can do this too for things near and dear to you if you practice the process, just like I have to do.)

I feel a sense of complete surrender that whatever happens is out of my control; it is handed over to a power far greater than what the little physical me wields.

And then people I’ve never met show up in my life saying things like, “I just knew I had to contact you,” or “I just had a feeling there was something different about you.”  And I always know it has nothing to do with me, at least not the ego part of me.  They are drawn to something that is inside each of us if we let it shine in its natural state.

This takes some effort but when I do my part, people seem to find me who can benefit from the work I do.

Why I Give a Lot of Thought to Pricing

Anyone who knows me knows that I couldn’t care less about money. I’d walk away from everything to reach my life’s goal of being able to truly feel Love in my heart for others, at will, in any situation. That is the only drive I have and it comes from seeing my life review during my death experience during my car wreck and NDE. That probably sounds crazy, but it truly is the only real goal I care about and everything I do works towards that end.

I know I will see every detail again someday and that is what drives me. But I still live in the physical world and have to make a living. So that can be a real conflict, as it is for so many who want to help others but have to support themselves too.

Hard lessons have shown me that I can’t invest in my own personal development and spend tens of thousands on coaching training and developing the expertise I have and give it away free.

So like I do with most things, I ask for guidance and listen to my feelings in an attempt to do what is for the highest good. I really want to help people be more empowered so I freely speak about and write about the details of my process. I have free audios, videos, articles and a free ebook that breaks down my stories that I use as models for anyone to follow.

Many times I want to coach someone without charging them, but I usually get a warning signal about that; I intuitively feel something that I have to listen to. And I also use logic because in all the years I spent doing that I never once saw results in the person who had no investment in it. When someone is willing to invest in something, it is meaningful to them and it has a better chance of being used so they receive the benefits.

And I have come to feel that “The Universe” may have been trying to get a message to me that I wasn’t hearing. That may have been the reason so many very unusual computer, server and backup glitches came all at once that resulted in the loss of my entire online business in 2011. It shook up my world in a big way and it has taken a lot of blood, sweat and tears to get back on a better track.

So as I opened my curtains and felt the warning to be at peace, I pretty much felt like someone was going to be frying me for something again. It is generally one of two things. It’s because I am only out to take people’s money and don’t care about anything but that, like everyone else, or, Satan has me in his grip because I say that God loved me, even with all of my faults I was seeing in my life review. I explain that I wasn’t judged and condemned, I felt only Love. It caused me great pain to feel such Unconditional Love while watching how my negative emotions and bad attitude affected others, so I did feel accountable. But that came from me and not from fearing the judgment that had been passed on me. I felt nothing but Unconditional Love from God, or whatever you want to call the Being of Love and Light that met me at the end of the tunnel.

And now I stood at my window, wondering about this feeling that had come over me.

So to see what it was all about, I went to my computer, paused and did some deep breathing just long enough to build up a feeling of peace in my heart. Then I opened my email to find this explanation from someone who had just unsubscribed from my list.  He was explaining why.

“I first came across Terri Rose on youtube, loved her story on her NDE and it appeared genuine.. after watching a few more videos I thought I’d get on her email list .. after receiving several emails, I find that most do not offer pertinent info unless you pay money, and not $5 bucks or $10 bucks, but $97 or more.. I realize everyone needs to make a living but my goal was to align spiritually with Terri in hopes that she would help me on my journey.. however, through research of my own, I’m starting to help myself and I suppose that’s the only way to go now-days. Selling spirituality, that’s exactly what ministers, bishops, cardinals, and the like, that’s what they are doing – selling salvation – and, as much as I hate to say it, Terri Rose (as nice and down-to-earth she appears to be) is doing pretty much the same thing … “

Comments like this in the past were why I had determined I would stop coaching and putting my stories out there in such a public way. I didn’t think I had what it takes to withstand the criticism and judgment that is part of the program when you do that.

A Milestone

What happened next is the most exciting thing that has happened in my life in a long time. I STAYED AT PEACE AS I READ HIS WORDS. For the first time, I didn’t have the usual stress reaction that I have worked so hard to eliminate. And that is why I am so passionate about the work I do on myself and with others. No racing heart, no knot in my stomach, no rush of adrenaline, no physiological stress reaction. That is what I knew I had to attain if I was going to put myself out there again.

I am using this example because the majority of people spend the majority of their time at a high level of stress, reacting to one thing after another. But I’ve seen firsthand that it is possible to break that cycle.  We can develop the ability to shift into a peaceful state of mind and body and let that feeling carry us through the storms. Until we have peace in our own lives individually we can’t bring sanity back to the planet.  And we really need to do that.

Thankfully, just like negativity can pop in unexpectedly, there is also so much good that can happen out of the blue.

“The Universe” (God, Source, Higher Power, Creator) works in such mysterious and wonderful ways at times. It felt like the timing of something else had been orchestrated, as if I was being given a special reward for my efforts.

I found another email. It was from someone who told me she had also found me online through my NDE story. But in contrast, here is some of what she said had attracted her to me and why she had purchased 2 of my coaching programs.

“You provide a lot of info for free and at a very reasonable price. I remember thinking, ‘Wow. This woman really gives a lot of herself to make the stuff she’s learned available.’ And the free stuff isn’t just fluff, sucking you in so that you’ll shell out the bucks. As you know, so many ‘spiritual gurus’ charge (IMHO) outrageous prices for their workshops, etc.”

I am the same person but the perception of 2 people couldn’t be more different. What matters is what I know in my heart to be true and that I don’t let the opinions of others affect my peace of mind. I used to have no control over my emotions years ago, but it’s nice to know that doing simple things consistently changed that and brought me to where I am today.

I share this to give you hope if you are someone who has wounds, secret fears or bad memories that hold you back. There are always going to be people who reject you and that can hurt. But you can heal and get to the point where I found myself today. It was a very big moment that I am so grateful for. My body didn’t react in pain and shut down to protect myself or prepare so I could run away, literally or figuratively. Those are the moments I live for.

I caught the sign; I listened to my intuition so I could be prepared and then actually felt compassion for this person who judged me as he did. I was able to imagine that he was probably seeing things through the filter of his own painful experiences and trying to protect himself from pain that he feared I might cause. I was able to understand that.

So I can move forward with my own life, knowing I am on the right path. I am able to teach others how to use techniques and tools that will free up so very much of their energy. Then it can be focused on acquiring a life that is full of the things most important to them.

“The Universe” lined everything up and delivered a great gift to me today. It was the knowledge that I truly have changed from the inside out and that I’m moving much closer to the goal I envision every day.

The process I use and make a way of life, will work the same way for you too.

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